dear diary

This is a love letter.

To herself. From herself. Written over eight years without knowing that's what it was.

After two marriages and a lifetime of searching for the one who would finally make everything okay - she found her. She had been there the whole time. Every memory. Every tear. Every joyful noise. Every single second.

dear diary: IT'S ALL MADE UP! is a memoir in 100 diary entries spanning 2017 to 2026. It begins with grief and ends with a woman who has finally, fully chosen herself. In between: a bathroom floor in the middle of the night, a conversation with God that never stopped, moon cycles and Hebrew feasts and the kind of sisterhood that saves your life, and freedom, Summer 2025 turns to a season of true freedom rising and declared out loud for the first time. And here is how she remembers it all.

Written in psalms, prayers, poems, and the raw voice of a diary never meant to be read - this mémoire is not a tidy story of healing. It is messier and more honest than that. It is the real thing.

For the woman who has felt too much, searched too hard, and hidden too long from her own light.

Everyone else's way never worked for her. So she surrendered to the Great Silence and decided to do it her way.

Thus - dear diary: IT'S ALL MADE UP!

In case no one has told you today: I love you. Your presence is a gift. Why else do you think they call it a present - and look who's at the center.

Remember to laugh often. Share your love. Cherish right now.

Live Loved and Remember.

- Kristin Marie Fierro